Saturday, January 22, 2011

My Story

Ok, I STINK at blogging every day.
I guess I feel like "what's the point?" If no one is even reading this...

Well I've been reading a blog title ThatWife and it's kinda "inspired" me a little.

This time last year, I had just moved to Utah, was engaged, and soon to be married...(Ok so I wasn't engaged until the 23rd but I was almost there!)

And in 2009, I was taking the lessons with the missionaries. Who would've known (other than Heavenly Father) that I would be married to one of those boys just a year later.

So I'd like to go ahead and talk about my conversion story. I don't want to be limited to 160 words like I am in some places to talk about the most amazing experience of my life. I know that a lot of my friends and family don't agree with my decision, but I couldn't just deny the things that I felt because it might upset some people.
My whole "story" began with me dating a guy that I knew was LDS and me thinking I could save him and show him "truth." We would drive around town and have long talks about the differences in our faiths and it came to the point that he wasn't curious at all about my church, but I sure was curious about his. I had to go to Memphis because one of my uncles passed away, and while I was there I talked on the phone with a lot of people. (I'm sorry if this upsets someone after what I'm about to say but I don't want to hold back anything, I want the real story to be told) New years eve, I went to a party in Memphis with my cousin. We had a lot of "fun" and I watched everyone drink quite a bit. I also met a guy there...I don't remember his name but I do remember flirting with him a lot. That whole time that I was in Memphis I just felt empty and numb and cried more on that trip than I ever remember crying in my life. Everyone was giving me compliments on how beautiful I looked and how great my hair was and just so many things like that but I felt awful. I would spend a ton of time just looking in the mirror, becoming more and more obsessed with the outward appearance while trying to mask what was going on inside of me.
When I got home, I started talking more and more to said mormon boy. I googled the Book of Mormon and found mormon.org. I started reading the introduction to the book and praying (even in the shower) to let me know if this was true or not. I was so scared because I just KNEW that this couldn't be true. I had been told my whole life how wrong the mormons had it and that we needed to help them see the "truth". I prayed night and day and finally decided that I would go to church with the Sparkman family and give it a shot. When I got there, the church was actually brighter than the other churches in town. I don't know why that stuck out to me but it just was. I sat down and before I was there for 5 minutes there was already a group of little ladies shaking my hand and giving me hugs and acting like they'd known me their whole life. Not much different than the Baptist church in a small town but they gave me a label. Investigator.
During the first meeting, which was called sacrament meeting, they passed trays with bread and water. I'm used to communion which is little wafers that are like bread except more like a cracker and then grape juice. The water thing threw me off.
There were two little children that got up and sang a song with an adult. Also there was a little girl who spoke during this meeting, and I was amazed at how much a 5 year old could know. There wasn't just one pastor that gave a sermon, there were several people that got up and spoke. Some of them cried, and I didn't understand why they were crying. It was such a weird thing to me to see someone blubber over the pulpit. The songs weren't much different, still singing with a piano and a hymn book.
So the first meeting wasn't too bad...then to Sunday School. Me and mormon boy's sister went into a class with the other teens that are still in high school. One of the boys kept falling asleep but I knew this was my chance to participate so I paid extreme attention. We started talking about things in Doctrine and Covenants and I realized that I didn't have that in my bible. Brother Sparkman (our teacher) took a little time out of the lesson to try to explain to me about Joseph Smith but this was a lot of information to receive in one day so all I really remember was him showing me the cover to Our Heritage and explaining what a personage was. It really didn't make much sense and I was really starting to feel overwhelmed.
Then we went to Young Women's. There was so much to take in that first Sunday that I really don't remember much. I know that our teacher in YW let me pick a song from the hymn book so that I would be able to sing along. I picked How great thou art and belted it out very loudly. They'd never heard me sing, so what an introduction to my voice! I felt awkward. It was so new and everyone kept saying words that I didn't understand like reverent, investigator, sacrament, atonement....etc. I felt like these people had a completely different education than I had but we had all been going to the same High school!
So finally...the three hours were over...I was invited to go over to the Sparkman's house for dinner and I was definitely ready to eat and sleep! I was also invited to a fireside in Monahans but I thought it was kinda strange that they told me to still wear my sunday clothes to a camp fire?! But I went like they said...I didn't know we were going to church again... By this time I was SO overwhelmed with emotions and just felt so confused. These people were so nice to me but there were so weird too...I didn't know if I believed it or if I should run! Well after the fireside, we went into a room to eat some lasagna and cookies. Well I was left in there by myself because Sam had to go plan out the next fireside and Mormon Boy was still in class....So there I am...surrounded by mormons and eating lasagna...with a lip ring..and pink strands in my hair...
In walks a boy with a name tag and he's singing. I'd met elders before and had even talked to them a couple of times so I was really happy when I saw him! He walked over to the table and introduced himself as "Elder Chucay" but when he said his last name I had to look at the name tag again and ask him to say one more time because the way he said it and the spelling just did NOT match up. Well FINALLY Mormon Boy was out of class and he was talking to Elder Chucay's companion Elder Beesley. We all 4 start talking like normal young adults and joking around but then Elder Beesley asks me "Hey so where are you from and why haven't we met you yet?" (They thought I was just less active) So I felt really awkward and was wanting to just sprint all the way home! But thankfully Mormon Boy took over for me and told them I was that Investigator word again....Well Elder Chucay was very happy and they both wanted my phone number and address so they could come "talk" to me sometime. I still to this day think that those 2 tricked me, but I'm not hostile. On the car ride back to Pecos, The family wanted to talk about the different lessons that we'd had. I really couldn't take much more. Mormon Boy asked his dad to stop talking and I just started bawling...I couldn't explain what I felt but I felt like everything that I'd know my whole life had been turned completely upside down and I was beginning to question everything!


So the missionaries called and set up our first appointment to meet up at the Sparkman's house.

To Be Continued.......

Monday, January 10, 2011

Day 4 & 5

Day 4 a habit you wish you didn't have:
I wish I didn't have the habit of leaving my clothes on the floor. It's been better lately because I just leave them in the bathroom now but I used to leave them EVERYWHERE!

Day 5 a picture of somewhere you've been:
A wonderful little place in Kayesville!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Day 3

Day 3 is supposed to be a pic of you and your friends but I don't have any pictures with me and my friends just me and my husband and heck he's my BESTEST friend :) 

Day 2

The meaning behind my blog name:

 I'm thinking it's talking about blairbychooky and that's pretty easy... Blairby is a nickname from Kelsey who thinks that all the coolest people should have a 'y' at the end of their name. And Chooky because I'm a Chucay now, therefore I'm Mrs. Chooky. (Chooky is Stephen's nickname from high school I believe)

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Day 1

So here's a daily challenge to see if I can blog every day for 30 days....
Here's Day 1! 




1. I'm married 
2. We're getting sealed in the Bountiful Temple
3. I study Cosmetology 
4. I'm from Texas
5. I was born in New Orleans
6. I can beat boys at burping contests.
7. I wear tube socks
8. I was the White Queen in Alice in Wonderland
9. My husband's Ecuadorian
10. I am not. 
11. My mom lives in Tennessee
12. Dad lives in Texas
13. I live in Utah
14. I change my hair...often
15. I want a dog/babies. 

If you want to participate- here are the daily questions!
Day 1 - A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 2 - The meaning behind your Blog name
Day 3 - A picture of you and your friends
Day 4 - A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 5- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 6 - Favorite super hero and why
Day 7 - A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 8 - Short term goals for this month and why
Day 9 - Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11 - Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Blogs and why you made one
Day 13 - A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15 - Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16 - Another picture of yourself
Day 17 - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21 - A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22 - What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23 - Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25 - What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27 - Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29 - In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Our Prophet

Thomas S. Monson is rarely caught NOT smiling, so one of my New Years resolutions is going to be:

SMILE!!!

I hope that some of you will join me.
Thank you Jess for sharing this wonderful picture and helping me to realize what I need to focus on :) 

Relief has come... (this was supposed to be posted on Nov 30)

Stephen and I can finally be relieved to know that we have our own place!
We just moved into a little one bedroom apartment, and although it's not the best place on the planet, it's home!

The Diet Plan....

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the weight I've gained since Stephen and I got married, but I don't want to be a yo-yo dieter. I guess it's a good thing that it's new years, because I've decided that it's time to change my diet. I learned a long time ago that diet isn't something that you do to lose weight, it's literally the WAY you eat. So if you're "going on a diet" you're really just CHANGING your diet.

When I first heard about Atkins from my dad, I was really young so I didn't think very much about it other than he couldn't have bread and that was torture for me!! But now that I'm older I've researched it and realized that it's not that he can't have bread, he just can't have WHITE bread because believe it or not...IT'S BAD FOR YOU. And so are white pastas...it's the same thing in every "diet" book. Switch to whole grains and you'll be healthier. Our entire nation eats a lot of junk and it's always the people that are in the most trouble with their health that have the best nutrition advice.

I've decided to change my diet to a low carb diet, and when I start adding carbs back I'm going to switch to whole grains like brown rice, and whole wheat bread. I know people hear Atkins and think bad thoughts, but if it's done CORRECTLY it's very healthy! I'm going to be eating more salads than I ever have in my life, and getting the protein that my body needs. It's all about moderation.

I hope I don't offend anyone by this post, but I get really tired of everyone being nutrition experts. I know what's right for my body and I know what I need to change to be healthier. Stephen and I were living off of Ramen noodles and Mac and Cheese...although that's cheaper, we both have gained quite a bit of weight. I'll give this a shot, and see how it goes. I'll be updating hopefully more than I have been lately. I want Stephen and I to be healthy and I want us to raise healthy children.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Picture update!!!

Here's a bunch of pictures from the Fall '10! 



Don't mind the eyeliner Stephen's wearing...this was during the play "Alice in Wonderland"

Grandpa fell while we were hiking :(
Thanksgiving!!











The move...



Surprise Visit!!!
                                                     This is Rob ^ and this is my mom



Temple Square!!!



Sunday, January 2, 2011

Afghan, blanket...thingy

So I've become OBSESSED with knitting lately.
(you can ask Stephen, he'll attest for this.)

I'm trying to make this afghan blanket thing and to be completely honest, working on it during christmas was much more appealing than it is now.

I'm also making lots of scarves and would like to venture into making beanies!!