Monday, October 15, 2012

Realizing I don't know everything....

It's actually very difficult for me to admit that, I do not know everything. 

There. I said it. 

In recent conversations with Stephen, I've realized just how much I need to learn. Not necessarily about "life" because I feel I have enough life experience for a 22 year old, and I'm not really looking to learn any more life lessons any time soon.(You know the ones I'm talking about...) I'm sure I will, and those are sometimes the hardest, but the learning I'm talking about is actually concerning my beliefs. 

What does it matter if God has a body? How does the Word of Wisdom affect me personally?   Do I really want to be with my family forever?

The biggest thing that I've realized I don't know is, who is Christ? What does it matter who he is/was? Why do I need to know his teachings?

I know these are all questions that could be answered with the "Sunday School answers" but do I KNOW the answers? Are they a firm part of my testimony?

That's what I'm going to find out. I want to learn more. I'm craving it. 

Friday, July 20, 2012

The Birth Story

I'm going to try and get this out in the most positive way possible (But I can't promise not to divulge way too many details). Lately I've had memories of the birth and they haven't been good ones so I want to try to write out the full story so that I can remember both the bad AND the good! What I received at the end of the labor is most definitely the best part!

It all began on December 30th, 2011... (Friday) Stephen had asked for the day off because I had gotten a distinct feeling that he and I needed to go on one last date before Chandler got here. It was an amazing date! We didn't do too much, we just hung out around the house for a little while and got a couple of baby things put together (changing station, bouncer, receiving blankets, hospital bags) and then went to Red Robin and a dollar movie. While at Red Robin, I realized just how big I was when the hostess asked if I was having twins and I just said "Uh, no...I'm 39.5 weeks pregnant." I tried to not be too upset because I really love their food so thankfully it didn't ruin the meal!

After we left there, we headed to Jenny's (the mother-in-law) house for a New Year's Eve Eve party since we had plans for the following night with friends. The cousins brought over Just Dance 3 and while I was watching everyone play I was thinking "Man, that looks like a lot of fun and I actually think I have the energy to do it!" so Stephen and I danced to several songs and I was feeling great! I wasn't having any of the contractions I'd been having and Chandler seemed to enjoy the movement. When we were about to head home Stephen's grandmother told me that if I was tired of being pregnant that I could take castor oil with orange juice and that it would jumpstart my labor......Sooooooo
Before we actually went home we stopped at Wal-Mart to buy Castor Oil and toilet paper (you have no idea how grateful I am that we bought both!). I didn't need to buy the orange juice since I'd been taking the awful iron that you mix in with orange juice--gag me!! So anyways, when we got home I asked Stephen if he thought I should wait until the morning to take it or if I should take it before bed. He said he didn't know but it'd be fine for me to take it before bed. Well we both learned our lesson!!!!!!!!!

At 2 am I woke up with AWFUL cramps! I thought I'd just eaten something bad and it was coming back to haunt me but I spent the next 45 minutes going from the toilet to the shower to swaying to trying to do anything to make the pain slow down or stop. By 3:30 I woke Stephen up and told him my contractions were 5 minutes apart and that they were really strong and I felt like we needed to go. We'd had several false alarms in my 3rd trimester so he was reluctant to get out of bed but when he saw me on all fours in the floor he believed me. I wish I had've stayed at home longer because the shower felt amazing for the pain!!

When we got to the hospital it was 4:20 and the ride there had been very bumpy and all I wanted was to get back in the water. They got me all hooked up to the monitor and said I'd need to wait until they checked me before I could get in the water. I was at a 1. 5!!!! What the?!  So just when they were about to say the words "you need to go back home" I had a giant rush of fluid come out and I said "Either I can't control my pee or my water just broke!" Sure enough, they said my water just broke and for me to stay in the bed for a little while so they can get me "really" checked in......

Nurse Shift Change

Introducing the meanest nurse I've ever met that like NEVER smiles....ever.

I kept begging to get in the water or to get up and walk around and she said that until she had 30 minutes of good feed from the monitor that I had to stay put...on my left side...with oxygen....
Really?!?! Ok, then I need to pee!

I went to the bathroom and I'll just say that I took my nice sweet time in there....

When I got back from the bathroom they hooked me back to the monitor and checked me one more time for good measure....4cm

By this time I'm wanting everyone to stop touching me and to get the kid out! I had no idea what time it was but I was tired and I was in pain and no one would let me do what I felt like my body needed to do. I had high blood pressure and Chandler kept dropping off the monitor.
Finally they get the midwife in there and I start begging for a c-section or for her to just get the kid out (This translated to her that I wanted anesthesia...Thank you God for inventing such a thing!!)

I was trying to go natural but since I was confined to the bed, I took the epidural and I thought it would just be smooth sailing from then on but now I can tell the nurses are getting stressed because they're having one emergency c-section after another but I'm also at 8 !! The midwife rolls me to another side because the baby isn't in proper position to push so in the midst of all this rolling and manhandling (legs being numbed renders you pretty much useless...) I start to feel my pain coming back really strong so I push the button for a "boost"....couple hours go by and now the pain is super bad and it's almost completely worn off and I'm at a 10 when the nurse notices my shoulder is wet. Normally they would just have me push but all our nurses are in surgeries so they wheel me to a room they're performing a c section in so the anesthesiologist can fix my epidural but it's too late my body is already bearing down and when we get to my room I start pushing with the pain. To the shock and amazement of the nurses "she's a good pusher!"

Why didn't they just let me push 2 hours ago? They thought that as a first time mom I'd be pushing for hours so they just let my body do a lot of work. Uggh.

So after 45 mins of pushing Chandler Ryan Chucay was finally here at 1:44pm and it was amazing!!!! I couldn't believe how beautiful he was and how we now had a beautiful baby boy! 8lbs 5oz 21inches long!

Recovery was rough because I had 2nd and 3rd degree tears and lots of stitches but I had a lot of great help and would go through all of the pain and swelling again!!

Chandler at 6.5 months

So I kinda stink at updating lately but Chandler's 6 month stats are as follows

HEIGHT: 27 in.
WEIGHT: 17 lbs 2 oz
HEAD: 17.3 in

This kid these days has a very STRONG will to go go go! He never wants to sit still and if you are holding him he wants to bounce up and down on your lap.
He's a TOTAL flirt! I can always tell when he's distracting someone in church because he just holds onto my neck and makes little noises.

I love this little guy so much and it's so much fun seeing him play with me and his daddy. I thought that I would have trouble finding more love for him because that first day with him was so amazing, but sure enough as these months have gone on, I love him EVEN MORE!!!

He's super close to crawling and pulling himself up on furniture. He lunges out of people's arms and if you're not quick, he'll roll away. I couldn't find him the other day because I'd gone into the other room and when I came back, he'd rolled under the crib. Definitely keeping me on my toes...

He loves to scream whether he's happy or sad, but he very rarely cries. He'll grunt and let you know that he's not happy or whine but not just full on crying. He makes so many noises and blows rasberries on your cheek instead of kisses.

His favorite foods right now are sweet potato puffs, strawberry mango frozen puree, and mommy's milk (I think it's really just the closeness of mommy that he still needs)

We've tried to get him to sleep in his bed, but we all just get more sleep if he sleeps in the bed with me. When we have a room all for him then we'll work on it, but it's just not worth the tears/screams right now.

Again, I love this kid soooooooo much! He's my world!

Friday, April 13, 2012

3 months and cloth diapering!!

So my LO is 3 months old now! He's so much fun since he's very interactive and loves to play. He has now begun rolling over, sleeping in his own bed, and playing with his feet. He gives me huge smiles when I sing or make funny voices.
The only problem we've had lately is his stuffy nose, so we went to the doctor and they gave us an antibiotic and at this point, I think I'd like to keep the stuffy nose!! Chandler has developed a terrible rash and the disposable diapers have just made things worse so I switched to my cloth diapers... Finally! This is just day 1 but so far we haven't had any problems! Tomorrow will be the first day for Stephen to use them so that could be interesting! I hope he doesn't wait until they're leaking before changing him. Anyways, life is pretty great around these parts and I'm hoping things just keep getting better and better!!

Sunday, February 26, 2012

2 months old!!

Since I forgot to upload Chandler's 1 month picture, I figured I would do both 1 month and 2 month in the same post :)






Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Chandler Ryan

Chandler Ryan was born on December 31, 2011 at 1:44 pm. He was 8 lbs 5 oz 21 in long.

Friday, December 23, 2011

Merry Christmas Adam!

Because Adam came before Eve....

Anyways, I just thought that I would write a post that isn't about my pregnancy and focus on what's actually going on this season!

I get so excited about giving my husband gifts that I kinda forget that it's one of those holidays where we're supposed to EXCHANGE gifts, and not like a birthday where it's all about him. But I don't mind giving and not getting. So last night I went to Wal-mart to get my last minute items and when he woke up from his nap (He'd been feeling bad all day) I gave him some Tylenol to make sure his fever was still broken and keep it away and then convinced him to let me give him one gift. Then when I saw how excited he got about THAT gift, I wanted to give them all to him! So...I did. Except his stocking, because that really is a Christmas thing!

I truly love this time of year and I'm looking forward to Chandler joining us soon, I just hope that Stephen has a padlock on the closets when we buy Chandler's gifts because I might give Chandler his gifts early too! Eeeeek! (When he's older of course...)

And here's a little video to help us remember the spirit of Christmas.
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